I took the photo through the glass of my shower door in my bathroom. The printed images were placed behind the glass and drops of water in front. You are your own biggest critic. You can become aware of that but there is nothing you can do to change it, like looking through glass but never being able to pass through it. No matter how hard you try, no amount of tears or pain can ever soften the harshness of your own judgement upon yourself. You can never wash away what lies beneath the surface of your mind. Everyone will once become aware of this though it seems hard or impossible to come up wth an explanation as to why.